SO I GIVE UP.
I am done. I have tried to be supportive and loving but honestly…
Thursday was great. We worked shit out. Sunday was CRAP.
He was distant, he ignored me and seemed so judgmental of me. Not okay..
I am not here to be on a shelf and taken off when wanted. It’s not okay.
I got why he did this at first. I know he needed to “fix himself” but now it is getting old.
We were supposed to hang out tonight…and ya know what? NADA!
Haven’t heard SHIT from him. So fine…when he decides to text or call me I am blowing him off.
Forget you. I have been nothing but nice and patient with you. You just have walked all over me. You know DAMN well I am catch and I have ALWAYS been loyal to you. So I am finished. Done. Your chance with me is done..
…what do you do when you realize after four years of knowing a person you realize you are in love? And what do you do after four years you guys finally get together and then break things off because he needs to get “back to normal”? And what do you do if you never told this person you love them? They knew how you felt and they knew you always wanted to be their significant other…but they didn’t really know or even understand that there is a chance you may love them or not? And what do you do since you can’t tell the world about this because of the damaging affects on your friendship and relationship for the future that you have to tell everyone that things are ok?
I honestly do not know. I hope I get a chance to see him on Thursday night…cause I truly miss him. And my heart is breaking. I am trying to stay strong and I am hoping this whole thing will bring us closer. I just have lost him once before. And I am not losing him again…I hope..
I’m sorry tumblr, I have barely been on here. Idk there is just no point. I findi it very boring…
Maybe it’s cause my personal life has picked up :)
I could gush about Andrew’s Valentine’s Day he planned for me but I’m gonna keep it ao for myself :)
Everything is looking up is all I have to say ;)
Well I did not get all my homework done during the week but I did get MOSTLY everything done. I just have a paper I need to write for my Law and Society class but that is due Thursday. SO I’m on the right track. Did my journal entry for History of Science and the reading and my reading and questions for Chicano Studies. I am working on my reading for Law but it is terribly boring and long. That’s law for you…
I am currently enjoying a cup of cider on this chilly Sunday and I don’t have class until Tuesday. WOO!
But work at 8am….BOO!
Other updates for me:
-I get my iPhone 5 on Saturday! YAY! Best Buy do not fail me now, because Target, AT&T and Apple ALL have.
-I went on my date with Andrew last night to dinner. AMAZING <3 I know…I know. I am gushing. But it is SO HARD cause he is adorable. Something about him I just like. Maybe because we have been close friends for years and we did lose touch and somehow like a LIFETIME movie find our way back to each other? Our future is looking bright :)
-Having my review with my boss this week and I am supposed to get my raise on Friday also. I am not sure what the raise will be and there is a chance of a promotion? We shall see though!
And that’s all folks! Back to work!